i am you

& you are me2018                                           


abhyanga / subtle love     


preparation / sleepless night
rising 4:00 AM no one awake but boats

robe tied, oil steeped

moving slowly to shore

crisp air like cool breath on wrists

first light 4:44 AM

screaming cry of seagulls
low tide, slipping stones & itching legs


burning retinas / missing sun


sitting like a rock

waiting for light to break

clouds / oil to crown 5:05 AM

sunrise 5:16 AM
oil to sole 5:17 AM

rain / the Divine 5:18 AM

submerge 58° ocean

sprinting heart, breaking waves
emerge / day







[be prepared]

[ask permission]

[protect yourself]

[approach with respect]

[pray for guidance]

ᐧ failed attempt at fire 5:20 PM

ᐧ black charcoal

ᐧ unlit copal

ᐧ co-conspirator 5:29 PM

ᐧ candle / sticks / matches

ᐧ fingers, flame & smoke

ᐧ spiraling sweet aroma 5:34 PM

ᐧ clearing air

ᐧ a different state of mind

ᐧ a deeper presence of body

ᐧ awakened 11th sense 5:50 PM

       the distinction between

                                 past and present

                     gone 6:47 PM

            the difference between

  physical and nonphysical

                                vanished 8:52 PM

axis Mundi

[or learning from trees] 2018


[listen to the wind]


[forehead to trunk]


[keep feet on ground]


[absorb the cells of the tree]


Night Vision

[a dream recitation]


secret acts

duration: 12 years, 2001—2013



phase transition /

         of a substance

directly from

a solid         to  a                                g     a     s

      / defense mechanism

                  in which

        socially                           unacceptable

                 impulses or idealizations are

                                unconsciously          transformed into socially

    acceptable actions

                                                       or behavior

© 2020 Monica Lynn Manoski photos courtesy Ashley L. Wood, Suje Garcia, Linda Pagani, Samara Pearlstein